man... well I feel lousy again. I have stuff that I should do, but I'm not interested in doing it. everything is super boring, and I'm just all listless feeling. I dont even want to read my boring books or anything. I'm looking towards my first winter with no school, and that seems depressing. man... What am I going to do. I just want to sleep, or i dont know. I really don't want to sleep because that's a really boring thing to do. I need to make something. I feel like I've wasted the day, but I don't want to do anything. Don't want to play games, or do work or be alone, or go hang out with people. actually I want to have a fruitful time clothes shopping. maybe I will take a shower. I don't want to waste my day at work again tomorrow. It's gotten to the point where I don't think it's productive. blah. need to make my own work and shit.