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29 March 2005 @ 06:14 pm
my new belt  
1:45 So I went outside and Helped bury Maxwell. It wasn't that bad. I'm that I actually did it. I mean, when pixel was put to sleep, I just kinda pretended I didn't notice that she was not around. I felt like I'm one step closer to balancing my frustrating love/hate relationship with death. I wonder how obvious it is. I mean, the Zombie Play? what do you think motivate me to write about a zombie being the hero?
Well, I feel fine now. kinda sad, but at the same time happy. But if I think about the past, I can make myself more sad. If I don't think about it I feel less sad. Is the best way to deal with this just to not think about it? Or what? What part should I think about? Did I mention that I like this song playing?
I kinda want to just sit around in my room. I also want to buy a new camera at Frys. I like my new belt. it is a nice day out today. Maybe I will just go walk around. or go to frys. or something.
The good part is that I will feel fine tomorrow.
it was just like he was sleeping. Oh conflict.
I think I will take the mummy Wraps off my iClear.

06:13 pm
I really like this belt Lauren Convinced me to buy! Super Score!!!
Current Music: Ready Steady Go - L'Arc~en~Ciel - SMILE
Siner Dsirnerd on March 30th, 2005 02:47 am (UTC)
I think death is something that doesn't get resolved by thinking it over or talking about it with other people. It still lingers and it's still a sad feeling. I don't necessarily think that time cures it either, it just sort of hides it and you just think about it less. I guess that's a form of curing.

I liked it that we were playing Cranium and one of the questions was what is Panacea, and i knew what it was from RPG's.

The games on my iPod are really cool. I like parachute and arkanoid is on my iPod already! I really hate arkanoid without the power ups though. Those power-ups really made the game. I like the music challenge too because I really don't know 2/3 of the songs on my playlist so it's always fun. I got really far in parachute one day. I need to turn my CDs into mp3's sometime soon. It would make listening to my iPod a whole lot better cause i can listen to albums instead of the random playlist of like 1/2 japanese/anime songs.
fusakofusako on March 30th, 2005 06:05 am (UTC)
oh shit Chris. dood, thats rough. but it was nice that you did it - the burial ceremony. gestures always help.
hang in there!
Travistearak on March 30th, 2005 09:06 am (UTC)
My condolences' on the passing of your friend. Feel better