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03 May 2005 @ 11:17 pm
 
Man oh man. I really don't know what to do with my time right now.

I really wish I could get away from computers.
there is absolutely nothing in my life that I want right now, and thus I feel like I have no point. the only thing I want is something to do, and something to work toward. I'm really tempted to just take up drinking like other people, and just not have to think about how I waste my day looking for Livejournal to entertain me, or trying to get my fucking music organized. I can't even believe how obsessed with music I have become lately. god.
I need to get organized and pay my credit card bill again. I'm going to mark in my iCal when I pay that.
Also, all the contacts in my phone are corrupt, and make it restart when I text messae people. which is fuckin lame. hrm...
I tried to write a screen play, but I have no motivation, and the script just sounds like a whiney version of high fidelity and fight club. actually my script is essentially fight club, but in a different package at this point. maybe I should stick to writting children's stories.
Maybe I should I dont know. I can't believe I have no motivation to do anything right now, and my fucking two days of no work are going to be up and then I have like 5 days of work. errrrrrrgg. I just feel so lonely and bored and uninspired and frusterated.
and I'm sick of reading manuals and then not making anything.

I went to the Gym today, and I was like, wow - since I have nothing else to focus on I could start going to the gym a lot.
Still seems empty. blahhhhhhh. I need something to inspire me to do stufff.
 
 
 
Patrickmcpat on May 4th, 2005 07:07 am (UTC)
yep
After college sure is a tough time, trying to figure out what to do and all that. It is really hard finding realistic goals that are still interesting. That is partly why I have been doing so much cooking and why I am taking this computer vision class. try stuff and see what happens.
Jesus Northbahia on May 4th, 2005 05:40 pm (UTC)
the gym is fun. you enjoy it more and more the more often you go. i like running. it makes me feel the best afterwards.

you could come hang out in Santa Cruz more often and we can go to the beach! if you want advice on your screen play i'll read it for you.
Siner Dsirnerd on May 4th, 2005 10:40 pm (UTC)
writing
you should write episodes for shows that you like. well shows that take on guest writers. Like star trek. I know they have guest writers. And I think some other show has guest writers too... I'm not sure if a lot of shows do this, but it'd be a good way to get more practice in. You can also take pictures and submit them to magazines. I hear you get a lot of money if they like your pictures. Uhm... you can also start learning a martial art. Those are kind of fun. Sports are fun too. I wish I could play soccer, but I can't really run more than 20 feet without getting out of breath right now.